No regrets, right?

I don't know why I phrased it as a question. The other day we were talking about all of the places that I want to explore/live/have an adventure in and I can't get over the fact that, had I said yes to Indonesia, Korea, or China, not only would I be traveling right now but I wouldn't be having these financial headaches but I'm still glad I said no. I just don't want to live and work in those countries, at least not at the moment. And even though I was slightly upset that I was passed over for both Fulbright and the World Affairs Council I'm still in a good place. I mentioned that I was going to start applying to schools again, and I have. In addition to going through an agency for Trinidad/Tobago, Costa Rica, Dominican Republic, and Aruba, (soon to add Brazil after the new year) I've applied independently to a couple schools in Russia, Germany, and Spain--oh, and for a volunteer position with the Chilean Ministry of Education. I'm sure you know which one I'm rooting for (SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN. I would love to go to Chile, but that depends on the loan deferment). These are schools I'd definitely say YES to.

In the meantime I'm trying to do all I said I would do (for now) here in Seattle and prepare for what's next. But, just in case, I'm also preparing for the off chance that I don't go anywhere. Although at this point that isn't an option for me.